This happens to be a piece i wrote over a year ago. I put it up and haven't seen it since i wrote it. after re-reading it i can see why. It came from a place of pain. I was going through a lot (whats new??) Well I wanted to share it with you so here it is Burning Tears.....
Something told me you weren't honest baby. Something said to get out while you can. You know the red flags that go up with the warning, screaming silently in the background giving you the opportunity to leave. But i stayed. Believed in you and me. Now I'm standing here with Burning tears. Frustration and anger in my eyes, confusion ringing in my mind. Praying to God why? Why would he do this to me, how could he do this to me. Take my heart and abuse me. You used me. Took my love for granted, stole my mind, my soul, ruined my body. Touched my secret places both seen and unseen, took advantage of trust I had in you. Still I tried, tried to make changes. Be pretty enough and more submissive. I put up with your constant complaining. Took on the duties of a wife no ring in hand. I gave in to your demands, laid on my back when i wanted to stand. How stupid was I over this man? But now i am standing! No more believing you loved me. I don't believe you cared. You weren't true to me, you were true to yourself. Left me with the luggage now i carry it myself. Its OK because I Love myself. Enough to know that god shares this same love for me and I don't need you. So change is finally here but you are not apart of it! No more Burning Tears.
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